what have i really done to make a difference in the world.

i use to have these dreams and aspirations. where did they go? have they been lost this whole time? or am i the one that is really 'lost'?

We use humour to hide our true intentions, and when our true intentions are revealed we use humour to cover it up. Is this some sick twisted ironic truth about life? Or is there something that i'm missing along the way?

Have a purpose you fool.

Sometimes i wonder why i feel this way. Sometimes i wonder why i hold myself back. Sometimes i wonder about certain consequences in life.

Sometimes i wonder whether things are real. Sometimes i wonder if certain people actually care. Sometimes i wonder why things happen. Sometimes i wonder why i feel betrayed. Sometimes i wonder why.

Sometimes i wonder that maybe the only thing holding us back is that voice inside our head. Sometimes i wonder why i talk to myself.

Sometimes when i think back, whenever i cook for someone, that person will eventually end up out of my life. Sometimes I should cook more often.

But... sometimes i just don't give a shit.

Why do I even bother. You're lying to yourself. Keep doing it. I sincerely hope you die along the way and realize it beyond death because by then you will still not find peace and you will forever rot in hell for being just the way you are.

So

It's been 3 years since i logged into this barren wasteland of endless idiotic thoughts.

I'd like to think that my existence has made a substantial difference in my life so far, but boy am i wrong. In every sense of the word.

What are you really thinking. Really.

The truth is, there is nothing on my mind. It's blank. But for every blank canvas lies a surface to be tainted with blood. Why stop at blood. Taint it even further with the harsh realities of life and the bitter element of tragedy that falls upon every miserable living creature on this planet today.

I am living on that planet today. I am that miserable creature.


I am miserable.

STEP UP 3D !

i found out about this giveaway from waiyan's blog & advertlets home page :)

i wanna watch Step Up 3D because i always had a passion for dance (ignore the failed dance photos haha) so i'd love to watch this :D

and Adam G. Sevani is pretty hot !

so give me a pair of tickets pleaseee !

Congraduation.

Broken nose ftw.